4. Journal Lotte 
Baby has to go in a kind of a prison for children for one month, it was Jules who made her go there. There she has to strip in front of other children and she realizes that something changed. She hangs out with Alphonse nearly every day.  I feel bad for her, because Alphonse isn’t that nice as he seemed, maybe he is hot, but he doesn’t give her the feeling of security and he doesn’t care for her. He is always pretending that he loves her and she is pretty, but he is a pimp. Baby is going on tricks very often. The relationship between the two is more like one side, because Alphonse loves her, but she doesn’t love him, she is just too scared to run away from him and go back to her father. I think he just needs the money from her to buy drugs. I don’t know if he knows what he is doing when baby has to meet tricks, she is a little child. Little children are not supposed to do things like that. Just “street children” or children with a broken family can end up doing things like that, in that age, I think. I always feel bad for Baby when I am reading how she doesn’t like Alphonse anymore and doesn’t want to stay with him, but she has too. She is dependable on him and she can´t get out of it. I wished that she would stay with Xav ier and everything turned good in the end and I hated it when he told her that they are not allowed to hang out anymore and how her mother looked at Baby in the middle of the night. She should have accept her to stay that night, maybe it would have changed her life and she felt to be loved and she would have realized how bad she is with Alphonse and how he is breaking her. Alphonse is afraid of Jules, but in this times Jules is absent in Babys life. They don’t talk much anymore and he doesn’t care as much about what happens to her as before. They had a fight and Jules takes drugs again and he got poorer. At her new school she can go in class with the "normal persons". She gets to know Xavier and they got closer and are like Boyfriend and Girlfriend and he is the only boy in her age who truly loves her. But she has a double life, cause she acts to Xavier if everything would be her first time, but in real she already had sex and took drugs and stuff like that. At the end she got addicted to heroin too, but not because of Jules. Xavier is also the only person who didn’t knew about all her life, that she is poor and a prostitute and addicted to drugs and drinks alcohol and smokes and all that stuff and one time he comes over to the hotel when Baby is stoned and they are making love and Alphonse comes home and sees Xavier and he hits him. In this situation I felt so bad, because Baby should have told him her life story, because it seems to me if Xavier is a person in who you can trust and he loves Baby and she loves Baby because she is Baby and because of nothing else, so it doesn’t matter where she is from and what she is gone through. But in not telling him everything, she showed him that he is not important enough to know everything and that she doesn’t trust him even if she does.  At the end Alphonse dies and Baby is alone, but then she talks to Jules and they go to Val de Loup together and he tells her how her mother loved her and he tells her stories about her mother.